Creatively Unfiltered Grace

I want to be in love , proper proper in love

Not this bullshit kinda love

The selfish kinda lover , I have no time for

They say when you least expect it , you’ll find them

Right now , that’s bullshit too

No, my heart is not broken, thank the Lord for that

But you know I put in , I invest

And then…

They can’t return it

Incapable of turning people down

Incapable of just being chilled

I heard its called a ‘anxious attachment’ style

But I am not anxious

I am just annoyed , that they can’t return my love

They can’t return my kindness, sweetness

I am not like anyone they’ve ever met before

I know it and they know it

But I am not enough for them

I hate being left on read

The blue tick generation is so absurd

Sometimes I wish that I found my person

Other times I don’t want that

Because this world is a broken world

Broken people hurt people

Broken people hurt good people

Period.

My friend said I should save myself

Jesus saved me though

So, I am Found not lost

I don’t need saving , perhaps common sense

Perhaps common sense , is what I am missing

Or there is something fundamentally wrong with me

‘You such a good person’ but I can’t be that person for you

Not sure , where my common sense is ?

Perhaps I should run or walk to find it

Because I never listen