*Side Note – I wrote this last year October 2024*
Me: She’s not going to choose me, people never choose me
God: I choose you! Every day I choose you! You are MINE!
Me: They say things like you are an amazing person, you love deeply but they never choose me.
Me: (Crying)
God: I choose you, every day in every season even when you don’t look appealing . I choose you; you are MINE!
Me: (Crying)
God: You are MINE! I choose you every single day , when you wear a cap and when you don’t wear a cap, I choose you! You love deeply because you love people, the way I love people, because you allow my Spirit to live freely inside of you.
God: You love deeply because I taught you how to love, I taught you how to love without reservations without tit for tat without wanting anything in return.
Me: I want her to choose me, to choose us. She says that the gf is selfish and an emotional manipulator but now the gf is looking after her. She’s going to choose her.
God: Then she will lose you forever because that gf is not of me , she is not my child and M will suffer because my people are not selfish lovers, my children don’t love tit for tat.
God: You can’t leave M because I don’t want you to, I know it hurts but you are good for her.
Me: She says that she still loves me, but maybe she’s not in love with me.
God: Don’t say anything to her than what I’ve told you to say.
Me: Okay (Wipes Tears Away), she says she feels like she’s cheating on her gf and she never wants to be that person.
God: I know this is hard but let me be your God, forget about M now. Leave your phone alone now, don’t check WhatsApp. Just leave it alone.
Me: Okay
God: I LOVE YOU!
God: You are mine!
God: And I choose you everyday
God: I chose for you to be born! You are MINE!
Me: I love you too (Sniff)
Me: (shakes head side to side)
God: I am YOURS and you are mine!
God: You are CHOSEN ! I CHOSE YOU!
God: And I will always choose you, till the day you leave this earth.
God: And it is NOT yet time for you to leave!
God: Be who I made you to be and that’s, that
God: I got YOU Boo! And I always will
Me: Thank you, for loving me without reservations
God: That’s just who I am!
*Side Note: She never chose me and that’s okay because I don’t want to be with her.*
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